Amazing Grace

Wow..if not coz a fren;s reminder I wudn’t haf thought of this blog of mine again…reading back..well well…it reminds me so much more of the goodness of the Lord in my life…year 2007 was a very tough year for me…and 2008 I had slowly pick up, grown and mature and I am looking forward for year 2009, and I pray this will be the year of acceleration where I will be mould even more.

God is really good, and I knew that I had changed, and able to give thanks in the midst of bad situatioon, learning to be thankful for all the good things and also the not so good things that happened to me for I know nothing happen for co-incidence as the Lord had all the plans laid for me…for me to discover and rediscover again. Indeed throughout this year much have been achieved in my personal life and I seen how the Lord had arranged and open doors for me that sometimes I am amazed…

Friendship that have been built over the past years…the very precious moments spend with friends, these are all the gifts of God in my life..and I pray that I would continue to be a living testimony for Christ. As I surrender, the Lord works wonders, as I continue to have a heart of gratitude, I began to look at things in different perspective, though situation doesn’t change at all…and what really touch me is that the Lord have always been faithful to me, though I am faithless and much time is spent on other things than talking to Him, yet, He does not fail to assure me and giving me the confirmation in my heart that He cares and He will never leave me or forsake me…He is really really good…such a wonderful and real God…

I just cannot understand how can a person claim that they have a God, yet in their life, so much of lies being told and no guilty conscience whenever they did sth wrong, rather justify that its nothing wrong…how can that be a true God….ultimately we would have to stand for our own action and words, and I pray that I would always remain upright no matter in what situation…

Thank You Lord, for loving me as I am, for your everlasting arms that is with me, for all the things that happened in my life…I know without You I would always struggle, but with You, Your assurance always with me, sometimes I fail You, but You have never at once fail me…Thank You Lord…my Daddy, my Friends, my King, the lover of my soul….

Create in me a clean heart oh God,
And renew a right spirit within me.
Create in me a clean heart oh God,
And renew a right spirit within me.

And cast me not away from Thy presence oh Lord,
And take not Thy Holy Spirit from me.
Restore unto me the joy of Thy salvation,
And renew a right spirit within me.

It’s a Saturday evening, am so glad to be at home, relaxing, listening to musics and resting…

There are many questions on my mind recently, I guess the more you grew up, the more things you gotta  take care of and think of…and this verse kept coming to my mind… " Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest - Matt 11:28" Yea…so much of verses that I knew, but the application part is hard to apply, but well..guess so far I am doing fine.

One of the things that I have always wondered is how come I am such a ‘weird’ gal, am so different with other gals out there..well..I guess I know the answer..I am not ‘weird’ but the Lord made me so..and I knew that I am at the right tract, at least I do not wear a mask everywhere I go…but just the plain me…true to God and people around me…I guess the hardest things in life is to ‘feel’ belong…to certain group or clique…but I guess the greatest victory is that you do not belong to any…but rather having our identity firmly established in Christ…

Through the years I had learned that I could not please everybody, rather, as long as I have the conviction of doing the right thing, I am accountable to Father God. Used to care so much of how other people see me, but I had learned, learned to throw away the "labels" that people put on me…and see me as who God sees me..that I am His children, truly blessed by Him!

I would say I am Highly Favoured by Him, esp in work, to get to where I am now…though people see that I had deserved it, deep in my heart..just a simple thankfullness to what the Lord have done in my life..the kind of love story between me and my God that is hard to be explained unless you tasted it yourself..these are the experience that would sustain me…throughout my life..yea..there are downtimes, when I feel the Lord isn’t there…but deep in my heart..there is always the inner comfort that He has always been with me…when I see that there is just a set of footprint on the sand..that is when He is carrying me though…

I just pray that He shall reveal to me more of Him, that I could really firmly establish my foundation with Him, not being shaken at times of troubles…but just be firm…and still..like what Ps 46:10 says…Be still and know He is God…How great Thou art..

For my friends out there…how I wish you come come to know of this saving knowledge of my Lord Jesus, the one you seems not to see, but He is there…waiting for you to invite Him to be a part of your life..the one who you can always hang on, the one that gives inner peace that the world cannot give…how I wish you could experience this love…..

The Lord is good…each times I am still before Him, He ministers to me..last weekend happen to be in DUMC church..and in my midst of uncertainties of what future lies ahead of me..He assure me with this song…

Lord, thank You for always being there for me, thank You for being such a faithful God to me though I am faithless at times…thank You for such life You have given to me..may me not take this God-given life for granted…may I always be forever grateful, giving thanks to You always…thank You for Your provision….thank You Lord…I Love You Jesus….

Lord You are always here with me

When troubles come I trust in You

For I know You will lead me through

And I know You are faithful till end

And when the storms are drawing near

When I’m with You I don’t have to fear

You’re my shepherd on whom I Can depend

Through the day

Through the night I

know You’re always by my side

Lord You are always here with me

There is no changing God in Thee

You are the same yesterday and to day and forever more

Here on Your promises I stand

You hold my future in Your hand

My solid rock Almighty God I worship You

Hmm…dunno why this few weeks been kind of nostalgia for me..sounding like a old granny recalling days of her life..

For the month of December, well..come to think about it, I have only worked for 11 days out of 20 days, the rest are holidays and balik kampung..guess this month is the busiest month in 2007, so much activities and travelling which I enjoy. Brother finally had tied the knot after 15 years of courtship, guess one thing I must salute him for..that is his years of courting..the same ol’ gal since the beginning to where they are now..praying the Lord shall kept them together..of course for salvation, most importantly..

Come to think of that..not easy to maintain a good r/ship after so many years of pak-toh-ing..praise God..finally..he’s married…next, hopefully it would be my sis…and followed by me..haha…somehow after each wedding it will kept me thinking..will the day come for me…I believe that is a wish of all gals too…how will my wedding be? Well..guess I am thinking too much…God have His plan…and hopefully He shall grant the desire of my heart…hmm..not hopefully…but Amen, He will! Meanwhile..guess I would just be complete as who I am now…while waiting…

What’s for me next year? Greater height in career? ministry? family? Well..alot of uncertainties…but one thing is certain is that He is with me..though much remarks been made of the economy, political issues, etc…I guess gotta stand firm in the Lord…and I pray for discernment and wisdom above knowlegde…

Well…time flies, and 2008 is just 2weeks away…this year’s journey have not been smooth, yet in the midst of rocky mountains, He made my feet firm, have been changed inwardly from glory to glory, from strength to strength.

So many times when we faced difficult times, we tend to get weary, by being weary it does not help at all, yet human nature is like that…and I am learning to submit all to the Almighty as well, not easy but I am trying… though my face shown not to be so happy or joyful, the fact that my heart’s conviction that the Lord have always been my refuge is so so strong, that He have always been with me…eveyr second, ever minute, every hour…for the rest of my days…because He is my Father and He loves me so. Never a time that He had failed me.

I had indeed blunder many times, but in His mercy and grace, He had given me favor, in my workplace, in meeting with various governmental bodies, colleagues, friends, ect…so much to give glory to God, indeed not by my might, not by my strength but by the power of God at work in me, He had given me the victory. The confidence I had gain in the Lord, not myself…had given me so much of opportunity..beyond what I can imagine…and all I can do is to give thanks..

Lord, help me to count my blessing always…let me be grateful and thankful each day for all the things You had done in my life…for all the hard time I went through, You understood…Thank You JESUS….my love, my peace, my everlasting Father…

This song was sung during my church’s prayer meeting..though I had heard it many times…I was moved to tears when the pastor led us into this meaningful song…

Oh that I would not take for granted for the cross where Jesus died for our sins..

When I survey the wondrous cross
On which the Prince of Glory died
My Richest gain I count but loss
And pour contempt on all my pride

See from His head His hands His feet
Sorrow and love flow mingled down
Did e’er such love and sorrow meet
Or thorns compose so rich a crown

Oh the wonderful cross (2x)
Bids me come and die and find
that I may truly live

Oh the wonderful cross (2x)
All who gather here by grace
draw near and bless your name

Were the whole realm of nature mine
That were an off’ring far too small
Love so amazing so divine
Demands my soul, my life, my all

Oh the wonderful cross (2x)
Bids me come and die and find
that I may truly live

Oh the wonderful cross (2x)
All who gather here by grace
draw near and bless your name

Love so amazing, so divine
Demands my soul, my life, my all

and the beauty and the shame
in the glory of His name
Oh the wonderful cross

Oh the wonderful cross (2x)
Bids me come and die and find
that I may truly live

Oh the wonderful cross (2x)
All who gather here by grace
draw near and bless your name

Aiyaya…for those interested to keep in touch with me, plz send it to ching_dew@yahoo.com. My Friendster’s message always fail. I tried to reply those who wrote to me, but juz cant and they kept asking me to verify my e-mail address, which I did endless time…not browsing through Friendster for quite some time and wont be browsing it often too…work kinda occupy me so much…well…that’s a life of a working ppl…heh..till then..adios..

Well well..cant believe I am at cyber cafe now, viewing thru friendster and came to know dat I had so many unread messages…

For those who is in the same company with me..you know why I am st cyber cafe..keke…

Time flies…before we realise we are now 1/2 years pass 2007…hmm..just to tell you guys that I treasure the friendship you had given to me and I dun think I am able to access to Friendster as often now…so do drop me e-mail if you have anything urgent …ie ..who’s getting married, have kids, promoted..etc…hihi..

till then take care and may the Lord bless you with good health and peace in you. God Bless

New year, new beginning, new dream, old self

Looking back, it was a full year of trials and testing, and guess I went thru it victoriously…can say so lar…though got ups and down..but the Lord is wonderful…

Sometimes wondering why I struggle so much in life..guess everyone does,in one way or another..it took courage to face a thing and it took action to move on..Praise be to God that He had lead me thru each trials. I guess from every trials, comes perseverance and it is how the Lord want to groom us, to be a beautiful vessel in the end for Him. It is wonderful to be able to wake up in the morning, thanking the Lord for each brand new day that He had given me

Looking forward for a year of Faith….